Everyday I wake up with a mission, it’s a simple one. To try to be the best that I can be that day. The best wife, mother, friend, contributor at work. This week however I am far from feeling my best. I don’t mind admitting it, I’m overwhelmed! I have the week off work. A week that I have waited months for. As my Mum, who has been battling Cancer, was diagnosed well enough to visit. This has created geat excitement in our house but that in turn has brought it’sown challenges in the fact that my two princesses seem to have become possessed. Their hearing has diminished, their manners, non existent and neither of them are sleeping! Much to the disgust of hubby!
I am as usual trying to do my best to manage this debacle, but apparently I am failing!
On top of this,my beautiful step sister has recently added a bouncing boy to her growing family and her mister wonderful is already only waking once per night. He’s 2 weeks old! My lovely bubs is now 18 months and is still waking 3 times as a minimum.. again.. I fail! Is it wrong to be jealous?
I am so exhausted when I get out of bed, I then spend every second trying to smoothe things over and make hubby, mum and the girls happy that I know i’m not doing anything well! Yes I know.. I fail.
I am checking my blackberry for work only once per day and I know there are some thnings that i should be attending too, I just dont have any energy left.. again I fail!
The laundry is piling, the wallpaper is hanging off the wall, the deck is unfinished and the weeds are rampant! All = fail!
I am feeling old, unattractive and overwhelmed…please do not remind me that as an older mother it’s going to be worse for me than someone in their 20’s! Apparently we can’t do the same as someone 15 years younger..I’m pretty sure that no matter what the age, as wife, mother, career woman (or man) we all get overwhelmed at some point and on that note I’m going to do the British thing and have a cup of tea.. as you know.. it’s always better with tea!
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You don’t know me, but I wish I could give you a big hug. You are not failing. So what if the deck isn’t finished and the wallpaper is hanging off? Those things don’t matter. What matters is the people. I know that overwhelmed feeling – because I’ve been there many times. The combination of exhaustion and stress and so many demands on us is *hard*. It always gets better, sooner or later. Hang in there, hug the people who matter to you, and remember that the rest doesn’t matter.
Thanks for the kind words. Sometimes we just need a little pep talk
oh the sleepless nights, i’m with you on that one , my 4th is nearly two and has never slept through the night and my lovely sister in law’s new baby is sleeping for hours too!!!! As for failing, no way!!! It’s all just too much this week, next week life will look much better, everything doesn’t need to be done perfectly, weeds add character to a garden 🙂
It’s great to know I’m not alone! Nice to meet you!
Great news about you Mum 🙂 None of us are perfect, and life isn’t lived by any kind of book. We all do the best we can and that is all anything can ask of us, or ask of ourselves for that matter
oh my darling daughter, you could never be a failure, two beautiful girls , a full time job, not 9-5 either, a big house and a, stupid ,silly mum that says the wrong thing at the wrong time , sorry sorry sorry ,,xxxxxxxxx love you soooooo much